Take me for instance, I'm not really the best blogger in the world but hey I'm trying and I've held quite a few jobs, probably one too many too be honest but most have never lasted long. A few were my fault of course but definitely not all of them, I quit for a reason.
What was that reason? Well i'll go ahead and tell you..
Why is that? It was a startup and I knew that and it was becoming apparent that things weren't being done right to fix it and help the startup grow. Of course I know these things take a lot of time, trust me, after trying to learn to market myself as a 3D Artist & Indie Game Dev since I'm not really much of a Marketing Guru I know exactly how hard that can be. However, I do have enough knowledge and common sense to know how possible it is to rapidly grow through the use of Social Media which is in my opinion is one of the most powerful tools available!
I made this suggestion along with tossing them a boatful of several other ideas to help out just because I wanted to try to get things to pick up which they should have for something of the sort but after working with a certain company I'm not going to name it became very relevant to me that the founders had no more of a clue about it than I did and it was time for me to move on, I could not wait any longer because my families life and losing out on paying bills was really starting to stack up.
That ended up being final straw that broke the camels back for me. After doing everything I could with wearing my heart on my sleeve quite a few times and tried to be up front, honest, help out, and there were times that as a freelancer I didn't even charge them for time that I should or could have because I knew how fast the hours can rack up. Eventually, it was just time to cut the cord after they left me with almost no hours my motivation just went out the window to continue working with them and I ended the contract on Upwork then moved on.
Shortly after that they tried to get me back but it was too late, my heart had already moved on elsewhere but, I just couldn't do that anymore as I too needed to survive just the same. Yeah I feel bad but it was freeing at the same time. While I did enjoy the job to a tolerable point as it was something I was okay with doing since sometimes we have to do things we don't necessarily want to do just so we can survive. But, to put it bluntly I wasn't really ever too happy with it or even any of the previous jobs I've had though sometimes I just had to suck it up and do what it takes to survive and sometimes that's just something you gotta do if it comes down to it.
I've worked for a lot of companies but even though I love the nitty-gritty of working on the technical side of things mostly involving computers they all have had one thing in common for me and that was digital art and computer graphics. Sure, I would do it again if I had to without a doubt. since I do love testing softwares and games for instance so yeah I would if it came down to it.
However, regardless I have noticed a change in myself over the last decade as I have grown overly fond of the 3D Art & Game Development Industry. Yeah there's a vast ocean of game art and development professionals and a lot of big name games and companies that I am not apart of but, I know that they were once in my shoes too and I believe with enough practice, time, and effort I know doing what I love can get me there since we all have to start somewhere and as the saying goes, no risk, no reward and I do have a ton of new ideas that STILL have not been created yet so I know I have a good chance regardless of what anyone else says.
This has create an eternal fire and I've had this passion for quite awhile that has pushed me to this point whereas before I just kept going with the bandwagon trying to get by and I think that was the problem all along was just doing stuff elsewhere so I couldn't ever focus on what really made me happy and motivated.
Over time this has built me up into something more of a 3D Artist that I am now constantly using Blender 3D & Unreal Engine 4 to the point that I have released my first PC Game not too long ago. I did a few before that but never made them live because they were just stupid little half projects that I never finished. But I am finding the more I do, the more I can do and then on top of that following others like myself Andrew Price, Mr Sorbias, CGMasters, Darrin Lile but the guys that got me into this life style the most started with the Tornado Twins. That was when I knew I wanted to do this for the rest of my life!
Now, I know some people might not want to talk about things like that or bear their soul for fear of being judged but this has slowly but surely made me less afraid of making mistakes and I am okay with that. You really have to learn to love to be comfortable with yourself to press on. And I think anyone else that might be struggling like me, yes, you can make it happen too! Success is Possible but you just may have to do a bit of heavy lifting to get there!
Since then I try to model something at least every few days though I do stop here and there but aside from everything else I have never been happier than I am today! I have found a few clients that I am working with and I plan to keep looking and doing whatever it takes to keep doing what I Love!